this is the right time

and the days just get better. last night, it finally hit me that i'm a college student and i'm filled with bliss being surrounded by others who are just as confused as i am. i like that we're smiling at each other, chasing after words, and trying to mold an explanation, only to throw it in the recycling bin for later use. i'm pretty certain we'll get back to it. all in good time.

i have two bad habits. well, i have more, but i'm willing to admit these two.
1. i crack my knuckles. a lot. especially when i'm concentrating.
2. i daydream constantly.

throughout the whole year thus far, i see many of my past daydreams surfacing into very real moments and this leaves me unbelievably happy for those few moments. then they pass and i relish the bubbly after effects while i wait for the next scene to come. i thank God that they've been coming frequently and consistently. and i pray that they continue coming for just a little longer before the things i dread start creeping their way in.

of course, spending nearly every evening/night this week in the city has only been fueling my new season of daydreaming. the new series often take place in a cozy, run-down apartment located in a back alleyway of an exciting city. preferably Seattle. the apartment building has steel ladders on the side with black paint peeling off. sometimes there's a stench of sewage when i walk outside. there's rubble lying around at the back entrance and across the street, there's construction going on. the windows could do a little washing, but i feel great having the place to myself. i obviously dream big. you know what they say: dream big or go home.